Tell Me What God Can Do

Tell us about your miracles. We are just weeks or maybe days away from meeting our babies and I want to hear all about miracles God has already done. In my bible I fast forward to the part where God heals. All of the healing.

True story though, mid-way through our pregnancy a friend sent me a message about a baby who was born with a birth defect. The doctors told his mom to terminate her pregnancy, just like they were telling us. He is now happy and healthy and funny story; I know him. My friend said she wanted me to know that God healed that baby, and He could heal our babies too. We have heard a lot of stories like that.

But when I read her text message, instead of rejoicing in what God can do, I threw my phone across the room and yelled:

DON’T TELL ME WHAT GOD CAN DO. STOP TELLING ME WHAT GOD CAN DO.

Then I fell to my knees on our kitchen floor sobbing.

That baby had one defect. Our babies have multiple defects, two pages listing all of their defects. It’s a list.

So a story of a baby with one defect who survived, I just couldn’t.

I was bitter. Face down on my kitchen floor that day (I hadn’t even cleaned it) I asked God to help me. And every day I ask Him to help me still. God did, He still does, every single day.

I have still been bitter, so bitter during this pregnancy (if you only knew) but I can overcome it by one truth. I know what God can do. Not just what God can do for our babies but what God can do in my heart. That bitterness, and my unbelief are no match for God’s promises.

And when I say, STOP TELLING ME WHAT GOD CAN DO, really I mean never stop telling me what God can do. 

xoxo.