So maternity leave ends eventually. Then you have to wake up at 5:00 AM and try to shower, feed your baby and pump for the baby and clean your pumping supplies and get out of the house and it feels, well it feels impossible.
But you tell yourself to keep the focus. At least that’s what I told myself. Just focus on work. Focus on everything but the fact that my baby is at home while I sit in traffic for two and half hours trying to get to work. TWO AND A HALF HOURS you all. Keep the focus. Somehow I made it to work 15 minutes early, just enough time pull myself together and walk into the office like a professional. Keep the focus.
It felt so good to be early, to be at work at all and to be able to hide the fact that I cried the whole drive in. I so had it.
Then my boss asked if I had a work release note from my doctor. I had a hundred FMLA documents but not a work release note. I had been back to work for 15 minutes and already messed up. Everyone knows you need a doctors note after having a baby. How could I have forgotten something so basic? My boss told me to go home.
Go home? Go home. My baby is at home…my baby is at home. I lost it. Just cried and cried. Luckily not in front of her but in front of our HR director. Thank goodness he has kids or he might not have known what was going on. He gave me a tissue and told me to go home. So I did and good thing because as soon as I got home, I realized what my real focus is.
All you working moms out there, you are crushing it. If you get out the door in the morning, you crushed it and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Just saying.