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Babies are thirty weeks and I can't believe it. Praise God from whom all blessings flow.

#twinpregnancy

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Can we stop talking about bodies during pregnancy?

Let's just stop.

This is me twelve weeks ago. Sixteen weeks pregnant with twins. I wasn't ready to tell anyone. But I did announce it, and you know the comments I keep getting? All about my body. Nothing about my heart.

My last pregnancy I carried babies with a life-limiting diagnosis and still the thing everyone wanted to talk about? My body. How big I was, how big I wasn't, how much weight I gained, how much I didn't gain. Rather than asking about my broken heart, everyone talked about my body.

And it was and is, so annoying... I feel like we can do better than comments about body size during pregnancy. I feel like we should try.
#bodypositive #pregnant #pregnancy

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I don't work with these girls anymore but I was so excited when I found out we were all pregnant at the same time! 32, 29 and 39 weeks pregnant. I can't wait to meet these sweet babies. #MDAanimalhealth

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We just annouced our sweet babies' name over on my youtube channel. Which makes it a little bit more real doesn't it? 💕 I just want it to be January so I can see them already. See if they are really real. If they are really going to come. And be okay.
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There is something about losing your babies that robs you of certain joy and certainty, sometimes it seems like all of it. The other day someone bought me two baby outfits, one boy, one girl and honestly, I got really mad. How dare they? Don't they know that babies die? What am I supposed to do with baby clothes? I'm not even 30 weeks. I can't put them in their nursery because that would mean that room is really theirs. Those were my actual real thoughts. I told another friend that and she just said, relax, "it's going to be okay."
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I need someone to tell me it will be okay 220 times a day. I need my doctor to say it, I need Tom to say it and for some reason I stopped asking God to say it. Because He already has. Over and over. That's the one thing He told me through out our last pregnancy.
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It will be okay. In our sorrow and in our joy, it will be okay. I didn't realize how much naming our new babies would help me believe that.

#twinpregnancy #rainbowbaby #rainbowbabies #infantloss #limbbodywallcomplex #twinstwice #23weekspregnant

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We went on an actual date! It's been like a year?
#dateyourhusband

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Ocean City vacation week. Earlier Tom asked Tommy if he wanted to go back inside to the kiddie pool, he said, "no, I''m a sea creature." 😂 #summervacation #labordayweekend

#OceanCity

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This is 19 weeks with twins. I think I just realized this is going to be hard (in the best possible way) There really is two babies. We just did this though so grow sweet babies, grow.
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Also first sweater of the season, woot woot.
#twinpregnancy #19weekspregnant

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My entire $2 fall decor-- one string of leaves, one foam pumpkin from #dollartree . I am SO excited for fall this year but my minimalist heart won't let me decorate for each season. Mostly because then we'd have to store it all. Anyone else? This weekend I did I let myself go crazy ($2 crazy) at the #dollartree.

This morning Tommy and my daycare boy were so excited when they saw it, they started jumping up and down shouting decorations, decorations! So maybe I should do more, lol.
#fall #minimalism #falldecor #dollartree #dollartreehaul

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When your husband brings home sunflowers the size of your head.

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Dear Eliza and Ensley,
I miss you so much babies. You are ONE today! I think about you all of the time and while it has been a whole year since you were born it really seems like just yesterday or at least last week. I was thinking about what it would be like if you were here. What we would want you to know most of all. The thing your Daddy and I would want you to know most of all is who Jesus is. But you girls are in Heaven, with JESUS face to face. Your Daddy reminds me of that all of the time. He’s known Jesus since he was five so he’s better at remembering. With Jesus face to face, more fully alive than you would be with us. We celebrate that today, it’s a joy in our hearts that never goes away. Even when we miss you and especially when we miss you. The hope of heaven is all we can hope for and you are already there.... (more on my blog, link in bio). #infantloss #limbbodywallcomplex #firstbirthday #monomonotwins

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Hi, I'm Emily. Welcome to the space where I share all the things I love. Like Jesus, and motherhood and trying to figure it all out. I live in a little town in Pennsylvania with my husband Tom and our son Tommy who is three. We also have two babies in heaven, identical twins Eliza and Ensley. I am also currently pregnant again! God gets all the glory. During the day I run a daycare and at night I design websites. I am so glad you are here.

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